Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Why I'm doing this

It's kind of funny. My mother recently came across some old photos of me from when I was in high school and we went on a trip to the Bahamas. Thinking back, I always considered myself fat - but looking at those pictures I was amazed that I was actually quite thin.

Maybe my thinking I was fat ended up being a self-fulfilling prophesy in a way. By the time I got married (at 24 - I'm divorced now) I weighed about 210-215 and in the pics from my honeymoon in Hawaii I definitely look fat. Now at 255 it's amazing. When I look in the mirror, which is rarely these days, I don't really see how big I am usually...but if I see a picture of myself I am shocked. That's not me! At least that's not how I feel inside.

I love the tropics - I don't care how hot it is, if I can see palm trees I am happy and don't feel the least bit hot. But it has literally been years since I have been willing to go to a pool party or anywhere where I would have to take my shirt off in front of someone. Being this fat has had such a detrimental effect on my ability to do the things and go to the places that I enjoy most.

Sometimes I will even make excuses and stay home rather than go out with friends because I am embarassed by the way I look. This time I am determined that I am going to lose the weight and finally KEEP IT OFF. Life is too short to waste it feeling and looking unhealthy. I'm so excited to get started on the hcg, and I really hope it works as well as everyone seems to say it does.

I'm at the point now, where I not only want to look and feel better, but I don't want to be one of those young people who end up having a heart attack or stroke - how embarrassing! (and scary, too, but mostly I would be embarrassed - how sad is that!) I definitely look forward to starting a new and active life again.

5 comments:

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